I don’t know if I have done this right.. So I have rated this video from youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KColrGj9dfo with five stars and commented under the username of kaikee07.

Anyway, today, I have plans to go to the mall because they’re placing almost all their products on sale! I still haven’t got some of my friends their christmas presents so I guess this is the best time to grab gifts for them.

This is my pre-new year post. As of the latest count, this is going to be my 565th post for the year 2008 alone. 2008 was a good year for me. In my previous blog entries, I recalled my memories of 2008 and with that I have realized that this year’s been a good one. I have experienced lots of joys and sad things altogether and those things molded me into what I am now today. There are many things that I have learned and things that I am so grateful about.

For 2009, I hope that things will get even better. I will strive to become a better person. I will try to learn new things and new skills. I will read more books. I may include Oprah’s A New Earth, Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose. I will work even harder. If I am asked to move out of my comfort zone for work, I will do it. Nothing and no one’s ever going to pull me back. It’s time to build my future. It’s time to grow old.

December isn’t finised yet.. so I think I have to update this entry next time..

..uhhm.. This is the month where I received another hope and a second chance. I wish not to break the trust I have been given again.. I hope not to mess up.

Defense Mechanism: Denial
Coping Mechanism: Eating, Drinking, and not sleeping at all

I realized that I haven’t taken care of myself lately. So I decided to place things in a better perspective.. I realized I need to fix myself, my goals, and my ambitions in life. I wanted to be happy again. I wanted to kick myself out of the dark side and back to the brighter side. The kids at greenbox brought my life back to me.. I was starting to feel whole again as I start to pick up the pieces of me each day. It was hurtful, but I decided to stay on the brighter side..

I thought July’s the most hurtful part of the year… but.. ouch.. October’s got the record! I thought I am going to lose myself..

Gugh.. I don’t even want to remember.

Because I was extremely happy, I have gone overboard. I went somewhere further and that was not expected of me. I just made a complete fool out of myself. I have been warned but I have not heeded… I thought it was okay… but I didn’t know that it was really not okay.

Sure thing, I got the slap I need to wake up.. but I think my skin’s gotten thicker that I haven’t felt being slapped at all.

hay nako..

From feeling extremely low in the earlier part of July, I was brought to the other extreme of emotions by the month of August. I was overly happy with the people I am with at that time.. I don’t know why, but something inside me kept pushing on the good effects that this certain person will bring me. Even up to now, I still believe in the very same thing.

I have done many out-of-the-line things, but during that month, I thought it was just okay. I didn’t know I am going crazier and crazier as each new day unfold. I was just extremely happy.

Every other night, I have drowned myself with beer and many unfamiliar and weird-sounding liquors I find in the menu. I got a terrible heartache and drowning myself with alcohol became my ultimate morphine. It was the worst part of the year.

Before the month ended, I was rescued by one of the sweetest things that happened to me. Yeah, this person saved me from insanity, brought me back to life, and showed me that things will become better if I really want to. I started investing on relationships again. I was indeed happy before the month ended.

hhhmm.. I was pulled back in Davao because of my Mom’s doing. I was grumpy when I came back here.. I really did not want to go back.. but because I need to study, I went home. Gugh. My birthday celebration back there in Cagayan de Oro was truly heartwarming. I have been treated warmly by my friends and that’s something I won’t ever forget. . But, a few days later, I found myself back again in my old room. hhmm..

Hard rain caused the floods in the city.. and I hated it so bad. It even broke Peechy’s adapter that I was forced to buy myself a new one which cost me Php680. Gugh. I hated Davao City at that time and wished I was in CDO, satisfying myself away.

I felt bad when Bagyong Frank washed out many towns in the Visayas Region, especially in Iloilo. I felt even more worse when one of the best things I have received in the earlier part of the year was gone along with it. It was the saddest part for me.

I have been going in and out of hotel pools and beach resorts all over Cagayan de Oro.. and frankly, I have given up Davao in exchange for living in Cagayan de Oro for good. I actually saw myself being in that very place for the rest of my life. hhhmmm.. I learned to love the city of golden friendship in like a snap. Even though it’s not as clean as Davao City and I oftenly get myself lost out there in their weird streets, I learned to accept and love it.

Plus.. my heart was brought back to life on the 18th of May… and I will not ever elaborate it here… hehe. akin nalang ‘yon!:)